Archive for October, 2014

All about money

Posted: October 31, 2014 in Uncategorized

Finish talking to my career adviser about my internship and how I’m being paid very little and not doing much of design work. Even though she has a point, but it’s not all about money. I just happened to start pretty much almost the end of the quarter and they about to sit down with the client about the final product. So I’m looking forward to the week after to hopefully get my hands into something more design related work.
I’m choosing my battles carefully. But by the end of the month if something isn’t done I’m suck till next year. I’m not that worried because worrying doesn’t get me any where.
I’m crafty in finding ways to make anything work for me.

Internship Day 7 & 8

Posted: October 31, 2014 in Uncategorized

Nothing big. It was full of taking stuff back and forth between two offices. Well they’re in the middle of making sales to a client, so it does make more sense why I have yet done any designs or learn much of designs from them. Supposedly it’ll end by next week, so I’ll take my time to create a small catalog for their past designs. Even though I said I wouldn’t really try to get reaction by this way, but I find their presentation a bit lacking. They don’t need to use my idea, but it would be nice to show them.
I have done about designs, but on my own account. I did labels for a binder for them, when they only asked to label them but never said how. I did um… I don’t what to call it, but I design something to put on my desk to show when I’m out, lunch, in the sample room or at the second office. Two of my co-workers thought it looked cute. So I’m a bit happy.

Today I was supposed to post up issue 4, but I’m changing the day to the 1st of every month.

back into a corner
where I must
think about
my actions
even thou
I have done nothing wrong

so I sit
there wondering
about anything
my thoughts
wonder off into
the subject
of my older sisters
and how much
I wish I could
should them
how much
they hurt me

I start to
get angry
and flashes
of me holding
my sister
by the neck
and banging her
head onto something hard
makes me want
to do it more

I start to see
how I will make
them suffer
in physical pain
the way they
made me
suffer through
the mental torment
of my up bringing
I will make
them bleed
in a thousand ways
as they
mental cut
through me

every time they would
speak I would
cut their
fingers off
one by one
till they realize
this is the
price I paid
to keep
my thoughts to
myself and force into
submission

every time they
try to fight back
I would put
salt on their wounds
this is the price
I paid
of being force
to never stand up
for myself

every time
they start to beg
for forgiveness
or plea
for me to stop
I would spit
on their face and
tell how
every time I plea
every time I beg
every time they put me
through hell
did they ever
think to stop

every time
they try
the pain will only
get worst
till they learn
to finally give up
and give in to
me and
finally understand
how it felt
to always be
pulled to the ground
and stepped on

just when I’m ready
to cut their
necks wild open
I snap back
to reality
and realize how
much I want
to hurt my sisters
but I don’t

I walk through
life as a ghost
and knowing if
I made them feel
the way they
made me feel
isn’t right
but it would
feel so good
but I wouldn’t.

time and time again
sent to
the corner
to learn my
lesson
at times
there is no
lesson to learn
just my older
sister wanting
me to stay
out her way
just another
hour of boredom
and hopelessness

that’s when
I realize
that my world
has change
the walls
closing in
on me
I could feel
spiders
go  all over
me
I try to
get them
off me
only to
realize
there are under
my very skin

I am left
going back and forth
in my head
to either
pick off my skin
and get the
spiders out
or let them
eat me from
the inside

I chose to
claw them from underneath
as I pick
and claw away
at my skin
I see no
spiders
only blood
and muscle
yet I still
feel those little
feet all on top of me

I try so
hard to claw
them out of me
to where
I could feel
them on my chest
I start to claw
my way through
my chest and
pull out
my heart
and that is when
I see the spiders
they are
feasting on
my heart
I try to
get them away
only to pull
my heart
away
I’m too
focus on
getting rid
of the spiders
I don’t even
care for my life

as I finally
completely pulled
my heart out
that is when
I’m back to
reality
sitting in the
corner
barely able to breathe
and yet my sister
doesn’t even notice
the spiders
on me.

Selling

Posted: October 30, 2014 in Uncategorized

http://www.redbubble.com/people/queenofshadows1/works/12913563-crying?p=iphone-case

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Selling

Posted: October 30, 2014 in Uncategorized

http://www.redbubble.com/people/queenofshadows1/works/12913684-rockin-angel

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Selling

Posted: October 30, 2014 in Uncategorized

http://www.redbubble.com/people/queenofshadows1/works/12913504-tree-waterfall?p=samsung-galaxy-case

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