Don’t know why, but I have this deep urge to drink again. Even when I’m trying so hard to stay positive and remind myself it’ll be alright. But the desperate need to buy a bottle and drown is strong, and I don’t understand why I’m having the urge when I’m trying to be ok. I currently don’t know what I feel and I’m struggling to keep a smile and not let my mood affect other people. Yet it’s clear as day my mood has completely and noticeably changed.
At that, I’m so close to my 2 year mark of being sober.
Xexiar 