Just some dabbling because I couldn’t focus on the projects I’m working on. So, wanted to kick the writing muscle started. hope you like. Might or might not turn into something. I don’t know. Female+Female: Alex and Rachael As I walk these halls, I couldn’t help wonder what am I doing here. It has been… Read More Dabble 1
Even though the chains are broken,I still have the collar and markings of my imprison. I still carry the weight of my chainsand can still see the bars on my windows. So, even though I’m miles away and chains are gone, my body still remembersevery last detail. No matter how much I run and try… Read More Poem: untitled
Would I ever feel like I’m home? Would I ever stop feeling empty? Or when I physically have a “home” will the feelings magically disappear? But there’s something else.
So as I’m sitting around today a little thought popped up. I wonder if I would do any justice if I were to write all my antithetical beliefs and thoughts about topics I feel strongly about, even though many of the topics are things I’ve observed and struggled to justify if I even can speak… Read More Rant 008
If there was a biography about you, what would the title be? The cactus among a rose garden. … Simply because it not only doesn’t belong there, but for so long it too believed to be a rose bush. But nobody ever complemented its beauty or acknowledged its differences. Instead it grows hearing the people… Read More
You ever been so lost and tired that you don’t recognize yourself no matter how hard you try. Where you keep wearing a mask but not sure how to take it off? Like I been so focused on saving money for potential rental deposit, since a lot of “assistances” wasn’t helping with that. I also… Read More Rant 007
Don’t get me wrong, I have very hyped games on my switch but my switch is just for my chill games. Nintendo has always been my gamer version of a good book. The sit down and vibe. Sometimes it’s the stand up and play, along with family competition. But my main baby, aka my wife,… Read More Rant 006. Gaming
Just found out that in April my health insurance is no longer going to cover my gym membership. Which was the only way I was able to afford going to the gym. I’m not completely upset or disappointed. I’m more at a loss, but I always had a feeling this might one day happen. Let… Read More Rant 005
I think the biggest reasons that I don’t understand or know what emotion I’m feeling most of the time is not only because of the toxicity of my upbringing, but also because my default reaction to everything is anger. Then when I notice I’m angry I quickly try to change it to anything but that… Read More Rant 004
Don’t know why, but I have this deep urge to drink again. Even when I’m trying so hard to stay positive and remind myself it’ll be alright. But the desperate need to buy a bottle and drown is strong, and I don’t understand why I’m having the urge when I’m trying to be ok. I… Read More Rant 003
As I’m washing dishes my thoughts about the whole asking for a day type agreement within a relationship popped up. And as I’m picturing how I would explain myself in that conversation, a statement just stands out. “We’re adults and I’m very aware I’m not your first priority. I’m aware how easily I’ll become background… Read More Rant 002
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